How

6:30 am

I don't know how to do this. How am I suppose to be happy?? How am I suppose to find a man and love him when YOU make me dream about you every time I sleep?? And all it does is make me think about you and the fact that you don't want me and I bawl my eyes out all day long. I've been depressed for over three years and I've been crying for two. I spent this last winter in Hell. I was ready to get on with my life when you came along and got my hopes up. Now every time YOU are near, I feel YOU and I cry even more. You're not being a good friend, you are being a selfish asshole who refuses to do what's best for you and your friends......why can't you just go away and leave us all alone?? Because, yea, your best friend loves you and cares about you and worries about you so much that it's hurting all of us. He doesn't have the balls to tell you that you need to grow up and fix yourself and stop hurting others just because you are not happy with the life that YOU choose to live.

"Dead Inside" Muse